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For the blurry fog of memories in the old dark secret places where strangers remained as strangers, and friendships are rare exceptions. For Martin Asturias who was a gem of a friend.
DELTA THEATER
Dito ako naglalaro dati-rati
Ang panagimpan nung ako ay bata pa
Ito ang dati kong tinatakbuhan
kung nangangailangan ng kaibigan
Ba't pa kailangang matapos
At bakit nila laging sinasabing
Wag nang lumingon, itaas ang noo't
Wag nang itanong kung bakit
Dahil maiksi ang buhay
At di mo mamamalayang tumatanda ka na
at ang puso mo'y nadudurog
Wag kumapit sa nakaraan
Datapwa't ito'y napakalaking hamon
Mabuhay at matuto
Ang mga taon ay lumipad
At wala tayong malay
na hangal pala tayo noon
na pawang di tayo mapapagod
at ang munting apoy na iyon
ay buhay pa sa aking kalooban
Hindi ito mawawala
Di makakapagpaalam sa nakaraan
Walang panghihinayang
Pero sana ikaw ay kapiling ko
May pag-asa pa naman
Naaaninag ko ang mukha mo
Sa ating taguang lihim
Hindi ka lang isang alaala
Magpaalam sa kahapon
Katagang hinding-hindi ko mabibigkas
Dati-rati dito ako naglalaro
Nandito ang ating kasiyaha't ipinagyayabang
Ito ang dati nating tinatakbuhan
Na walang sinuman sa mundo ang mangangahas na wasakin.
(This Used To Be My Playground by Madonna)
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FOOD. The one thing that rocks my world. It is my greatest passion. I love food. The only reason I am not already the greatest chef in the world is that I still enjoy the discovery and the mystery. It is a caterpillar pillar that I do not want to climb. But, I do visit often.
The only reason I'm writing this blog is to have a reference for my reasons for NOT believing in vegetarianism.
I don't think I have the patience to flesh it all out, so for now a list:
1. Animals were meant to be eaten. In the wild, predators eat prey. Prey who aren't eaten, die. Dead uneaten prey feed the life forms in the lower part of the food chain. Humans are at the top of the food chain for now. Deal with it.
2. Humans were meant to eat animals. Your teeth say so. Your pancreatic enzymes say so. Your gall bladder says so.
3. There are essential proteins that are sourced only from animals. Essential means required and necessary.
4. If you believe that animals have feelings, it won't be a major leap of faith to realize that plants have feelings too. With this reasoning, you can now only eat fruits, dairy products and tofu. But, if you're eating fruits and not planting the seeds then you are a plant baby killer.
5. I love lechon aka roasted pig. I love veal sausages.
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...I have ever read/heard in my life so far.
I have registered for a free online course on authentic Kabbalah that will start on April 12, 2009. The classes are webcasted live twice a week M/Th 8am Philippine time, but are also recorded so you can "attend" class at a more convenient time.
From when I can remember praying when I was around 7 years old until the past few weeks that I have been moving towards The Light, I have built and held on to a few convictions that have become my basis for what is TRUE and REAL.
1. God is absolute 2. The truth is absolute. It will be true whether you believe in it or not. Just like gravity, it is always there whether you believe in it or not. No matter what Bugs Bunny says. 3. God loves me no matter what. 4. Our concept of reality is limited to what we can sense collectively as humans. 5. Even though we all agree on what reality is, it doesn't mean that we are all correct.
As I listened and read through the basic concepts of the Kabbalah, my convictions are upheld. As I contemplate more on the lessons, life's mysteries are unfolded. Visit www.arionline.info and check it out for yourself. If it resonates with you then let us learn the Kabbalah together starting April 12, 2009. The great thing about it is that it is NOT a religion. They have the audacity to call it science.
This brings me to another idea that has been playing in mind. That, if God ever spoke in a language it will be Mathematics. Nature as explained by Science is expressed in math. And, Nature IS God. So, The Creator has to be the ultimate Mathematician.
Feb. 25th, 2009 @ 08:35 pm
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Ari's Dewey Decimal Section:
189 Medieval western philosophy
Ari = 189 = 189 = 189
Class:
100 Philosophy & Psychology
Contains:
Books on metaphysics, logic, ethics and philosophy.
What it says about you:
You're a careful thinker, but your life can be complicated and hard for others to understand at times. You try to explain things and strive to express yourself. Find your Dewey Decimal Section at Spacefem.com
Feb. 8th, 2009 @ 11:58 pm
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I can't keep secrets. I have the highest regard and greatest respect for the truth. And, it manifests in my life day in and day out. My close friends know that. My closest friends know it with all the painful realities, sometimes embarrassing and oftentimes cathartic consequences.
One of my lifelong friends stopped talking to me for 5 years before she got over my "betrayal of trust." I'm glad we're talking again now, but 5 critical years out of touch is still 5 years. Those were trying times when both of us had too many life changes to count and though people essentially remain the same, circumstances change. And, our friendship just isn't the same anymore.
This is a blog of 3 shades of "the truth" in 3 relatively "long-term" gay relationships.
Honesty. There's this guy who I see at a bar. A long time friend and contemporary. We're close enough to invite each other to his table whoever got there first. But, this time he was at the bar nursing his drink. He was crusing, meaning he was trying to hook up with the other guys in the bar. So, we both nod to acknowledge each other's presence and continue searching for prey. We've gone through this ritual several times in the span of our 2 decades long friendship. Whether or not he was in a relationship at any of those episodes, I wouldn't really know or care enough to ask.
At this particular time, days later, he announced to the world that he was feeling a bit down. So I suggested we go to that same bar to brighten up his spirits. Well, to cut the story short, he didn't appreciate my comment. Apparently, at the time of the comment, he was in a long standing relationship.
If you don't know yet, online commentary is atonal. It's hard to know if a statement was given as a serious recommendation or as a jest meant to put some humor into a rather bleak context. If it were just me and him talking, he'd probably just reply, "hahaha ano ka ba? I have a boyfriend and I'm not allowed to go to those places." But since our conversation was broadcasted to everyone including his boyfriend... he sent me a private message to admonish my runaway mouth. I can understand that the love of his life might not be too trusting and figure out he'd been doing this he's not supposed to. Whether or not, it actually happened. So, well, I'm sorry for my apparently-not-so-innocent comment.
Authenticity. Which brings me to another good, good friend who has a nasty vice. [Come to think of it, this story applies to a good number of other people I'd be wise not to mention.] So this friend's lover has forbidden my friend to engage in said vice at least for the time they are together. And, I've seen this happen too many times with too many relationsihps even between straight partners. For example, the other guy drinks from my bottle of beer, or that he asks me to light a cigarette in complete defiance of the love of his life. And, they fight and bicker and the night is sorta ruined for everyone else. It's like, "I only want what's best for you, so change for the better or else I won't love you anymore." You're not his parent. So, well, maybe I'm sorry for lighting your lover's cigarette.
Candor. Which brings me to another contemporary who I've known since we were too young to know better. And, again, this has happened to me soooo many times before in varying permutations. You see, I'm always looking for a not-so-nice guy to date and get to know better. Once in a while, friends come up to me and wonder why I'm still single. Sometimes, these friends in an act of pity or compassion would try to hook me up with other guys who they think would be a match for my esoteric personality. Occasionally, it happens that the people they want to hook me up with is not only someone I already know, they are also happily committed with someone else.
Heaven forbid that their lovers would find out that the love of their life is attractive or interesting enough to be singled out by some stranger who thinks that I'd be a good match for them. Whether or not these strangers know that they are no longer single and available, it's a capital offense. It's like, "I don't want you anymore because some guy thinks you're cute and should date his friend." It's lame. I'm sorry that I'm single, and that you might think that your partner of several years could theoretically run away with me. To where??
At my age, I've realized that people will do whatever they want, with or without love. People can say and think what they want, but in the end it's still and will always be a matter of trust. People do not, or cannot "accept or respect the truth" because they need to put faith in people, they need to believe and hold on to the man-made fantasy called TRUST.
I think people should only love those who they can accept in good and bad times. Whether they've grown fatter or thinner or sexier. Whether they've made mistakes without you knowing it and even during those times that you've accidently figured them out. I believe that love should be easy. I believe that love should have no choice, it's either you love them or you love them. Just like the theoretical love of a mother to her child. I believe that love should not have to force anyone to change, but that love will change one for the better at the right time in complete freedom and free will.
I know that love should be unconditional. No exceptions, no expectations and definitely no demands. I'm not really a good authority when it comes to relationships given my track record.
But, by GOD, I know how to love.
...and maybe that is exactly why I'm still single.
Jan. 24th, 2009 @ 04:28 am
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Yan kasi hindi nanonood ng Wowoweee... Okay lang. Dun pa kasi officially unang in-announce sa buong mundo na kasama sa Charice natin sa pre-inauguration ball ni president-elect Barack Obama sa January 18, 2008. Yun lang naman.
Jan. 14th, 2009 @ 07:40 am
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It's been a loooooooooooong time since I learned anything new... AND useful. Today I got something off someone's posting. The 5S.
1. Sort: Keep only what you use. Store or discard the rest. 2. Set: Place the stuff that you use WHERE you use it. 3. Sweep: Clean it up 4. Standardize: Formalize whatever you do in an orderly and consistent manner. 5. Sustain: Continue to assess procedures so that the above eSses are maintained. 6. Saftey: They put it in after the fact for additional focus. Purists don't like it. I don't like purists.
Make sense? It was made for factories, you could actually use it anywhere like in your bedroom.
Jan. 4th, 2009 @ 02:28 am
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Yeah, yeah, yeah... it's another Charice follow-up. Eh kasi sino nga ba naman itong si Aling Oprahng 'to? Ba't ba siya sikat? At bakit napaka-importante niyang tao sa balat ng lupa? AT! Anong relevance niya sa career ng Charice na 'to?
Ang alam ko lang kasi may talk show siya na sikat. Meron siyang chumenelyn na book club at some self-tilted sorta magazine. That for some reason, she's one of the richest people in the world and "quite" influential. So BAKIT NGA BA? So punta 'kong Wikipedia. At ako ay namangha at napatunayan sa sarili na higante ang mapapala ng karir nitong ating si Charmaine Clarice Pempengco. Para siyang isang natatanging shyell na sa kahabaan ng aplaya sa isang mahabang isla tulad ng Boracay na iyong napulot na waring isang treyshure.
MONEY * Forbes in 2007 ranked her as the richest African American of the 20th century, and * Within 2006-2007, sources say she was once the world's only black billionaire.
(pero walang masyadong kinalaman yan... pampagana lang)
POWER & INFLUENCE * At #19 in the 2001 list of Global Influentials, CNN & Time.com states, she is "arguably the world's most powerful woman" * Time put her in the Time 100 as the ONLY person making the list a record-breaking SIX (6) times. She made it in 2004 to 2008 plus the Time 100 of the 20th century. And, if you're wondering who the next ones are in the list, there were only 4 other people who only made it FOUR (4) times. * VH1 declared her as "The Greatest Pop Culture Icon Of All Time" winning over Superman and Elvis Presley. * In 2005, 2007 and 2008, Forbes named her "The World's Most Powerful Celebrity"
and, this is my favorite
* In 2005, Discovery Channel produced a 4-part TV series called "The Greatest American," placed her at #9 and dubbing her as "The Queen of Media." She was the only female in the top ten list.
With all that, I totally can't imagine the extent and enormity of an Oprah-backed career. I don't think she's ever launched a star like this before. Has she? I know she launches unknown books into the bestseller lists. Can she launch an artist into the Billboard's top charts??? We'll just have to wait and see.
Jan. 4th, 2009 @ 12:01 am
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As judged by Buboy Garovillo, Kuh Ledesma, Joey Reyes, Ai-Ai De Las Alas, Deo Endrinal, Annabelle Regalado, Louie Ocampo (Chairman) and ABS-CBN texters. I'm not sure what their criteria for judging is, but this guy was hailed as the "Brightest Star" in this singing contest slash talent show. Vis-à-vis Charice.
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Dec. 30th, 2008 @ 09:40 pm
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